Lost, the tv series

Lost

This is quite an old tv series. I remember when I happened to watch it, the next day I had to fly to China, and my heart beated hard during the trip until in landed safely in Sanghai.
With all this financial crisis, I think that I will have much less flying, thus it is probably a good time to watch it. So when a kind-hearted friend lent me, I said yes with no hesitation.

At first I think this is just a story of a plane crash and all the miserable things which happened to the survivor but it turned out to be much more.
Of course I will not write any summary, many people wrote it already.
But I can resist to write this down.
After I watched how Jack’s wife left him for another guy, even tough Jack is the only surgeon who was able to save her from getting paralyzed. Some thing in me clicked.
Betrayal !
And then John was left alone after being deceived to give up a kidney to his father which dumped him long time ago.
Another betrayal !
Not to mention that the Dharma thing in the Lost.
Namaste !

Something in me just clicked.
Just like in the Lost series, everybody has his own path.
It’s my path to watch it now.
See how I experienced the very same thing, betrayed by the person I saved.
Having he backstabbed me, without any precaution, of course…he was an old friend.
Even a dog will not bite the person who feed him.
How I have to suffer, my life changed, overcame the disappointment and of course the anger.

Watching some part of the story helped me a lot knowing how they deal with this.
How to put it all behind,
How to let go anger.
How to make peace with myself.
How to forgive.
How to trust people again.

When I help people now, it will be for me, myself, my karma…
Never expect any return, and always be careful for any damage that can be done.
But I can help ...again.

And then another old friend send me a Queen’s Concert DVD.
There is still goodness in this world..


… I hand my head and I advertise..
a soul for sale or rent…
Save me… I’m naked and I’m far from home…
- Save Me- Queen.

Tidak kekal

Got a tooth ache last week...

feel like better dying...

Strangely, it make me think

( this brain of mine has been rested peacefully in a dark corner for quite some time).

make me more realize that this body is not permanent.

nothing is.

everything keeps changing.
Once the pain killer works, I can smile, forget about the pain and suffering for a while, and be happy.

but then..the suffering comes again..

Fortunately I'm ok after some days of medication.
Is it just like resembling life ?

Anyway..

Last night after the rain finished pouring down.

with a stomach growling..feeling empty after burning some energy at the gym.

cruising the wet asphalt road with my yellow motor bike..

feeling the nice cool night air, makes me remember of my hometown, Malang.

hunting for a hot fried noodle...well very small of choice if you get hungry at night in this small town.

lucky me, I can placed my order before it was closed..

place: at the corner of Jl. Wilis.

price : 6 K. Rp.

One fried noodle, with eggs only, no meat, considering that if it was not finished,I can have it for breakfast today and today I plan to eat no meat.
but..with the help of my girls..it was demolished :)

hmm it's good to be able to eat...again..

but..of course it is temporary..

Impermanence

Bumped into reading this last night ....


If you know that all things are impermanent,
all your thinking will gradually unwind
and you won’t need to think too much.

Whenever anything arises,
all you need to say is "Oh, another one!"

Just that!


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hmm... a good way to kill my pain ?